Admitting to your brokenness can take you places with God that pretending to be perfect could never imagine reaching. - Jarrid Wilson
She realised that pleasing others was something she was doing. That she wasn't living a life authentically her own. That she wasn't listening to her own heart beat.
She needed to learn to slow down. To breathe in. And out. To listen to her soul speak. To really hear what she had to say. And what she came to find was that pleasing others never equals happiness. That even though it sounds crazy and even though its not the way to go, she knew it was something that needed to be let go.
It was something she felt deep inside her. She needed to pause. She needed to silence the voices in her head and the condescending tones around her. She needed to stop. To remember who she was. To remember what she stood for. To heal. To really take care of herself.
By doing that she finds renewed strength, she finds courage and wisdom. She learns to listen to the One who lives within. She needed to give herself some time.
She learns that at the end of the day. Its between her & God. She will take some advice, she will listen to those with concern. But.. she will not let it go deep in her bones. She will not let it run through her veins.
Because she learnt that rushing into something had hurt her soul before and she was to take some time before she ventured down that path again.
Call it what you want. But she soon discovered that friendship with herself is important. That it is not selfish to listen to her own being speak.
That she had her own thoughts and her own dreams. Whilst they come slow, they still come. And with them comes passion, comes a fire within her that she dares not tame.
She wasn't going to stay there forever but she did need to stay there for a while. To regather herself and venture into something that she felt God & her both decided this is it. This is the life I want to live. The life I was put on the earth for.
She knew others wouldn't understand and sometimes things get awkward but deep within her - she knew. It was time to listen to her own heartbeat.